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Hey it's The NYE (again)

It’s New Year’s Eve and they’re the words you’ve been waiting to hear!
It’s the New Year eve guys, about damn time! and just like every year, I am not doing a single thing on New Year’s Eve...
 because  I've never understood the need some have to go out and celebrate the New Year so it can become quite a forced atmosphere as people so want to celebrate, but no one is quite sure what they're really celebrating. As 2017 comes to a close, both relief and despair have crept up on me: I am glad that the year is over but sad that it sucked so ruthlessly. As people across the world prepare to bid farewell to 2017 by getting too drunk to remember its last moments, they may be finding it hard to shake themselves of a lingering sadness and I don't drink so that option is also out.
On every new year's eve, I feel I can relate to Joey more and more, and at midnight, I want to scream on top of my lungs 'why god why? Why are you doing this to us, let others grow old, not me!'


Another year passes and it’s been same as last year and the year before that… actually, it’s been 20 years in a row now.
And around 10:30ish, like every year I will remember in the small window at the back of my head this quote ‘We will not go quietly into the night; we will not vanish without a fight’.(and yes, I making a reference to the movie independence day)  Damn! Chills, Every time I dunno why but I laugh myself silly after that. Along similar lines…'2017 is going to be different, this year I’m going to stop.’(that was a joke,*insert laughter track*)

The older you get the more you understand that New Year is more of hype. It is just another day. A new calendar. If you are alone on New Year’s Eve like me, don’t worry you are not alone, sometimes despite your best intentions, you may find that holidays such as New Year's Eve cause you to feel more despair than happiness. High expectations for a holiday or a particular time of year can cause you to feel as though things should be better than they are. You expected this New Year to bring about changes and yet, you still feel just as anxious as before. To avoid falling into this trap, try not to have unrealistic expectations about New Year's Eve, or any holiday for that matter.Depression and anxiety are normal human emotions and they can be beneficial to us, but they can become dangerous to us if they become extremely intense and extremely prolonged. New Year's Eve is the "most depressing" night of the year with one study reveals that most of us will be in bed by 10.38pm.
There is a small event in my area on the New Year Eve. Exactly by 12am, but I will not be going because you know I don’t want to... if my friends were with me today, I probably would go out, but they are not around, they are not even in the same city as me. 
A new beginning?huh, Every day is a new beginning. For those who feel bad about spending New Year’s Eve alone, duh! it doesn't have to be something sad. You're gonna spend it alone because of misfortune? Keep in mind that it isn't that much of your fault. You would have liked to spend it in another way? Guess what, there will be another new year's eve next year (unless the USA and North Korea or China get into a nuclear war) so you have 365 days to do, do whatever is needed to have the new year's eve that you would have had. If you're alone on new year's eve because you don't have the choice, it doesn't change a thing about it to feel sad and depressed about it Make up your mind, and if you want the things to change, work for it and make them change. If you can't change them, make up your mind anyway. I'm probably gonna spend my New Year’s Eve binge watching I don't know what yet!? Today is just another day, why dwell on it and be sad when there's PLENTY of other people that aren't doing anything on New Year Eve as well. I'm going to enjoy this Sunday and look ahead to the future. 
No one is ever alone with the internet or with a good book or movie/series. So thanks, internet! It was a really dark time for me when the internet was not around. I can't quite pinpoint it but during the day on New Year's Eve, I always find myself feeling quite sad, emotional and reflective? I'm already feeling a little blue and we're an only half day in. Is anyone else the same? I often wonder what it would be like to be at a party with a bunch of friends celebrating, but I've never been there and it just seems like something other people do. I guess I've spent so much time by myself it's all I know and it's difficult to break out of that. I was just thinking this a bit earlier in the day. Every year I get a bit emotional too and feel a bit depressed throughout the day of the 31st. I think it's because of a number of reasons. One is the fact that you get reflective on what you have achieved or not through the last year, another could be that it is coming to the end of the festive season, and you have the dark dingy days of January and February to look forward to. To me, it's another year of getting older and getting close to my death, not so not much to be happy about. 
Despite all that I wish everyone a Happy New Year!  Happy New Year to you, your brother and everyone you care about!.

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